IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!
I don’t know whether I’m more excited about it being my birthday or sad that I’m a year older. Nineteen was such an odd year because technically you’re legally an adult but still treated as a teen, but twenty is totally different, you are not only an adult but the responsibility of being an adult is ever more present. People always say that turning twenty is amazing because you’re no longer treated as a child but being the youngest of four girls, I’m still very much treated as a baby in the family. However, unlike the days where I could ask my sisters for help to complete mundane tasks, I am now expected to be able to do those very tasks without having to need to ask for guidance. The likelihood of that is still very slim, I don’t see myself being very adult for many more years. Forever a child at heart!
Sadly, even though I am a year older I still very much have a baby face, one that makes me look at least 5 years younger than I actually am, and to make it worse being 5 foot doesn’t really make me look any older. I’m pretty sure that everyone I meet remember me as the short Asian girl who is always laughing or smiling, which now I am thinking about it isn’t actually such a bad thing to be remembered as.
So usually when you reach a certain milestone in life you set a list of goals you want to reach in a certain amount of years but unlike other people I can be very indecisive, so instead of listing goals I want to reach in 10 years I’m going to list goals I want to reach by my next birthday.
3 goals I want to reach or fulfil before I turn 21:
- Understand my relationship/bond with my religion
- Spend more time with my family and friends
- Find a way to give back to the community, wither through charity work or volunteering
These three goals may seem very simple but one thing I have realised as I have grown up is that I have not only have I lost myself but also my beliefs. So many sad things have happened over the last few years which have made me doubt my religion and my trust in certain members of my family and even though they may have done thing that I struggle to forgive, I want to be able to put aside those misunderstandings and start fresh. One important thing I have learned is that you should cherish your loved ones, and appreciate every second you have with them because you never know what could happen.
So now I am officially twenty, i want to think less about what others think about me and more about how I see myself, make changes to my life because they make me happier instead of trying to make other people happier. I think it’s important to not only surround yourself with people that make your life a bit better but cut out those who out you down and don’t appreciate who you are.
I hope you all have a lovely day and thank you for reading my post!
Love Sharuni xx
//13th April 2018//